The other day I was in the car hurrying to go nowhere, thoughts flying all over the place. I’d slipped back into stinking thinking. Into trying to control certain situations. Into assuming I knew better than God.
My worries felt so…
Necessary. Justified.
Deep down, I knew my behavior didn’t match my one word for the year “Enough” as in, God is more than enough for me.
And then this song came on the radio. When Matt Maher sang the phrase, “Lord, I need You, oh, I need You, every hour I need You…” I went back to my childhood, to a song we sang in church.
All of a sudden, I’m eight years old again singing, “I need Thee every hour” in my shaky voice. My small clammy hands cling to the wooden church pew.
To the illusion of control.
Because even as a little girl, I was afraid to let go.
In my car, my grownup hands clutch the steering wheel like an ambulance driver heading to the next crisis.
And bless Matt’s heart. He just keeps singing…
“Lord, I need You, oh, I need You…”
A soft voice inside says,
Let go. Unclench your fingers.
I stop at a red light and stretch open my hands.
I’m telling you the truth.
In an instant, the sweetest peace filled my car.
Just by loosening my grip on life.
If something (or someone) is weighing you down, take a couple of minutes to listen to this song, watch the pictures, and open your fingers.
I’m praying for you.
Thank You, Lord.
You’re my ONE DEFENCE. MY RIGHTEOUSNESS. OH, GOD, HOW I NEED YOU.
Love,
Julie
