He Loves Me…Even When I Mess Up

A couple of Saturday ago, I was grocery shopping, my mind wandering through Worry Land.

I was stressing and obsessing about a decision in life…

What if I decide yes and it’s the wrong thing? What if I pick no and it’s wrong? Ahhhh! What to do?

Back and forth, back and forth.

And then I realized I’d abandoned my one word for this year, SURRENDER.

I was trying to take control–the opposite of letting go. And it wasn’t the first time.

Then the guilt came.

You’re doing it again, you know. You’ll never get it right.

In my head, I knew God loved me, but for a few minutes, my heart forgot.

Driving home, I flipped on the radio. My favorite song was playing. Ohhh, how I love this song!

I knocked my worries out of the way and listened to the powerful words. They always move me.

I asked for forgiveness and let His love sink in.

God loves me. He really loves me.

Even when I mess up. Even when I doubt Him. Even when I struggle to surrender.

After the song, I prayed with a tiny amount  of faith. Barely a blip of a prayer.

God, I sure wish we could sing this song in church tomorrow.

Guess what? We did!

Hope you love it too. 🙂

P.S. How are you doing with your one word for 2012? If you’ve messed up too, it’s okay. God still loves us. 🙂 Big time!




  1. Susan Norris says:

    I’m with you, girl. I LOVE this song. It is such a powerful message. Thanks for sharing and being so transparent!

  2. Rebecca says:

    Julie my word this year and in years past is BELIEVE. Lately I’ve fallen in the devil’s trap of doubt and fear. Thank you for reminding me that in the midst of the mess of my unbelief, God loves me and there is light ahead.

    • Don’t you love it how God seems to give us the exact word we needed this year? You’re so right. Fear and doubt are such a part of the enemy’s trap. Thanks so much for reading and commenting!

      Keep believing. 🙂

  3. Michelle Vancil says:

    Thank you so much for the inspiring words and song, Julie! My husband is going through some tough decision making himself right now. I’m just going to put it in God’s hands. He always knows what’s best for us better than we do anyway.

    Hope all is well with you and your beautiful family!

  4. Thanks! Love the message, the song and the reminder to rememberwhat my word(s) are!

  5. Beautiful, beautiful, beautiful.

  6. You’re not alone! How often I fall into the same trap! And then I recall a time when He was faithful to supply what I needed, even if it wasn’t what I wanted. That helps me remember that He’s not only in control, but His choices are always right!

    • Love your response, Vonda. His choices are always, always, right. No matter what. No matter my feelings. Love you, my friend.

  7. I totally understand this, Julie. The tug. Worry Land. Surrender. Worry Land. Thanks for the sweet reminder of how He loves us! A gem!

  8. I’m smiling, Shawnelle. So glad you get it. We’re running away from Worry Land aren’t we! xoxo xoxo

  9. I sooooo love this song! What a good word, He loves me….PERIOD.
    You’re moving forward w/ your one-word journey and I love hearing about it…makes my faith grow.
    My one word, Simplicity…I can only say: You’ve GOT to be KIDDING? When I think of the past 3 months!
    Oh our Father has a sense of humor…xo

    • So true, surely He has an amazing sense of humor!!! Simplicity. Ha-ha! Thanks for walking and talking through this one-word journey of 2012 with me. 🙂

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