When you read this, you’re probably going to think, well, duh, what took her so long? The other day, I got stuck. It had to do with writing, but it could’ve been about anything.
Here’s my not-so-pretty pattern:
I try too hard. Drink too much coffee. Focus so intently on the problem, I shut out the rest of the world. Sometimes … even God.
A tiny thought came to me.
Why don’t you surrender this?
Ahhhhhhhhhhhh! That word again. Surrender was my theme for 2012.
For me, surrender means saying, “Help me, Lord.”
“Okay,” I whispered, opening my hands and lifting them. “I can’t fix this by myself.”
And then I got a crazy idea.
I decided to stop working, take a break, and make a cheesecake.
I shut down my computer and left my little loft office.
At the grocery store, I didn’t rush around like a madwoman. I smiled at small children and didn’t get annoyed because I got in the slow lane.
Back at home, the football game was on. I even asked the score.
(Use these cookies and your cheesecake will be gluten-free.)
Because I wasn’t obsessing, my mind was free to think gentle thoughts.
I didn’t lose count with my eggs. My meringue turn out just right.
I’m discovering (after 50 years!) it’s okay to have fun–even when your work’s not completely finished.
I’m finally beginning to understand …
It honors God when I let go of my problem(s) and take a break.
The answer to my writing problem came a couple of days later, after I stopped trying so hard.
“Do the things that show you have really changed your hearts and lives.” Matthew 3:8 NCV
Have you ever struggled with pushing too hard like me?
What do you do to chill out?