This past Friday night our church had a Night of Worship. Part of me didn’t feel like worshiping. I had a lot on my mind. I decided to just stay home.
I’d taken Mother to the rheumatologist on Monday. Something was desperately wrong–a physical, emotional, and spiritual weakness. It had been coming on for weeks.
She has three autoimmune illnesses. She couldn’t eat. Didn’t care to talk.
Our family had been praying.
The doctor mentioned clinical depression. I’ve been there. Twice. I knew the symptoms and the dangers.
He ordered blood work and discussed a medication change. As I drove her home, gloom and doom filled the car. By Thursday, she was worse. She said if she didn’t get better, she was ready for a nursing home.
Friday afternoon I called my husband. “Let’s skip worship tonight. Traffic will be terrible, and you’ll have to leave straight from work and meet me there.”
But he wanted to go.
Inside the sanctuary, rustic decorations and small white candles covered the communion tables. I sank into my seat and breathed.
Kneeling mats were everywhere–simple brown pieces of cardboard.
That’s when the change began.
When I knelt.
I opened my fingers. Turned my palms upward.
I love You. I need You. I’m sorry. I trust You. Whatever happens.
The worship team sang a new song called ”Death was Arrested.”
Oh, this song! This song!
It arrested my doubt. My concerns. I didn’t hold back. I couldn’t hold back!
I worshiped wide-open–with my whole my heart.
Something supernatural happens when we praise God. Click to tweet.
Worship welcomes us into His Presence. Click to tweet.
I thought I might float out of the building–all the way to heaven.
Mother called the next morning.
SHE WAS LAUGHING. Laughing!
“Julie, you won’t believe it, but last night the depression lifted. I can’t explain it, but it’s gone! I’m myself again.”
Lord, I don’t understand how or why, but thank You.
Sunday morning, the praise team sang my song at our church campus.
I took a 50-second video of the end of the song. If you can’t see it, click here.
Northpoint Church Worship Team wrote “Death was Arrested.” They sing the entire song below. The video quality is much better than mine.
If you can’t see it, click here.
Worship Him–even when you don’t feel like it. Beautiful things happen. Click to tweet.
Have you ever praised God when you didn’t feel like? Awesome, isn’t it.
( First 4 pictures from 12Stone Church Facebook.)